And it doesn’t matter how much you want it to happen, but if the other part doesn’t want to, or isn’t in it 100%, it just won’t work in the long run!
Not that it makes it any easier, when you believe in something, and then again.... I’ve realized (several times!!) than when something doesn’t go as I hoped for, it is simply because it just isn’t meant to be. But when you’re in it with feelings all around and your heart is still a long way from catching up with your mind, it can be very difficult to follow your mind and not your heart and let go of the one person, you believe is the right one....
The wording “He’s [she’s] just not that into you” becomes really wise and something I should be better listening to, and I’m really trying to do the wise thing this time. No matter what I say or do, if the person is not here, with me, in my life without me pushing him to be here, then it’s because “he’s just not that into me”!! But how do I convince my heart of that??
Knowing myself, I will not let my heart decide anything for very long and will be back on my feet soon. But this time I cannot do anything until this person is also physically out of my nearby surroundings and thus I can only wait for it to happen. Not that I look forward to it, ‘cause I hate saying goodbye. My hope is, that if this is over and will not survive the distance, we will at least be friends, ‘cause I got so much out of this and wouldn’t want it to end.
On the other hand, I’m also very much aware that I might be the one realizing that out of sight is out of mind – and maybe that hurts even more than the fact that right now I’m not getting the attention I really crave for..... That deep down inside something might not be as I would like it to. But the best way to find out is just to let time go by and my heart will tell me.
Still, it’s a rare feeling – I’m often the one left with a broken heart. Imagine if this time, there will be no broken hearts, but only a few scratches in our dreams!! Now, that would be a first for me, but probably a very healthy one....
But when it comes down to what really matters, I know that I have some fantastic people around me, who will catch me if I fall and carry me through whatever comes. I will never fully understand (and will never try to!) how I can be so lucky to have you in my life, but I’m grateful and, believe it or not, can hardly express in words how blessed I feel
And so, I, again, leave you with my usual reminding that you should tell people you love how you feel today – there’s no reason why you should wait till tomorrow. Look around you and you will find that life is full of good things – to me you are my happy thoughts and my joy. With you in my life, I will never go under – thanks for being you!
Hugs, kisses and forever love,