Oprettet af Birgitte Kratgaard 06 dec, 2018 12:08:01
Sometimes life challenges you in ways that you never saw coming. When everything seems the way it should be, and suddenly you find yourself in a totally new and unexpected situation…. And the only thing to do is deal with it!!
On a daily basis, media tells us how hard love and life is, but I never thought I might be in a position where I would actually feel some of it myself, i.e. the love part….. I have no doubt met the love of my life, and I truely believe that we will be together for the rest of our lives. And still I found myself in a situation where I reacted to a third party, who totally threw me off guard.
I never, like in NEVER, believed that this could happen to me. It has been an emotional rollercoaster, as my body reacted before my brain even began to realise what was going on. The wake-up call came in time to avoid the worst scenario possible, but it was quite a shock to me realising that I was close to stepping over the line.
But I didn’t cross the line, and in my heart I know that the reason for this is the love I have for my partner.
Still, it had me thinking about my life, my needs and if I actually knew myself as well as I thought I did. I’m not going to lay out my personal life here, but I can say this much: my physical needs have increased dramatically over the last few years, and in step with that I have started reacting to comments from outside more.
E.g. I never saw myself as sexy, and it is definitely not anything I have talked with my surroundings about ever, but being told repeatedly that I AM sexy, well, at some point I started reacting to it. Could it be, I’m simply human?? I started to be more careful about my looks and felt so much better, but at the same time I felt I betrayed my love and partner.
Then again, what is the definition of betrayal? Is it fantasising of another person, or is it the physical contact? Before experiencing this myself, I would have said it is the very thought itself, but I might be a little less hard now. There is a Danish saying that “it is ok to look for appetisers elsewhere, but always eat at home“ (loosely translated), and I have always believed this to be true. I just never thought I would do it myself…. I have asked myself several times over this period, how I would react, if it was my partner who was in the same situation. To be honest, I really don’t know! I could come up with a perfect answer, but in real life I just don’t know, what would happen, but I believe that my love is strong enough to say, that attraction is something we all feel from time to time, but the limit has to be the physical part.
That said, I feel lucky and very much loved by my little family. People come in and out of our lives, and I believe we attract people, who “fit” us as persons. And now I have found one, who is a person with values and personality that I really like. Hoping this will evolve into a really great friendship in time.
Those were the words from me today…. It took me some time to write it down, but this was an important part for me to write.
Remember to show the people around you what they mean to you – we only live
once, and you never know what tomorrow brings. Love is life